Oh my it’s been more than 2 months since I’ve updated. My pc was down for quite some time so finally I’ve a chance to update! Why not update with mobile? Well I can’t seem to type properly without sitting in front of a pc. So pardon my tardiness. Anyway recently, I have been ruminating on certain decisions I have made in life, and the sources of my choices.
For those who have read my interview in 8 Days, you’d know that the most YOLO thing I’ve ever done in my life is quitting my job before I’ve even signed my contract. Side note: Who doesn’t know what’s YOLO? It means “You Only Live Once”. I just learned this acronym not too long ago from one of my teacher friends haha. I’ll never be out of trend with amazing friends who will always know kid cool lingo. But I swear this is the most meaningful acronym ever created. Ok, I digress. As I was saying, quitting my job and living a few jittery months without salary (But please save up before taking the plunge, as they say, follow your heart but take your brain with you) is one of the few decisions I’ve made using my heart, and till now I can bravely say that I do not regret it one bit. It isn’t a walk in the park, but I derive so much more from it than just working in an enclosed space surrounded by walls and doors.
It seems to me that more often than not, my heart is stronger than my mind. Many a time I have tried to do what is rational, but my heart could not tolerate what the brain thinks is right. After a while, I would give up trying to be right, and follow my heart. And that is when I really find myself.
It is so much easier when you trust in your own feelings and let them guide you. Following your mind means you put a rein on your feelings and you slowly suffocate from within, losing your true self in the process. You become naught but an empty husk, enduring the daily grinds of life which brings little personal growth and satisfaction. With everything I do I find that listening to my heart bring me closer to the person I think I am and I hope to be. It may not bring me success or wealth, but it will bring me contentment and joy.
Yet the mind always battles with the heart, telling the heart that if it wins, it will eventually cause regret and suffering to the soul. We fear to fail. So when the mind tells us the possibility of failure we collapse under the sheer pressure and the mind wins the battle. When the mind wins we tread on the safe path, living out others’ expectations. But there is a constant throb in the heart, a daily reminder of what could be if we followed our heart instead.
Yes, trusting your own heart is not a definite ticket to the best things in life. Sometimes, when the going gets tough, you may feel that you are nowhere near where you think you might be. In these darkest hours, you have to remind yourself how following your heart has brought you happiness and satisfaction, despite the hurdles you have to face. You’ll find that you do not regret the choice you have made in listening to your heart.
In life, I only regret the things that I didn’t get to do. Not the things I have done. Because I chose them for a reason, and they shape me into the person I am. Even the wrong choices that I’ve made (truly all stems from following logic), because I believe they bring me closer to the right choices that I’ve made (with my heart) and I eventually will make. I have made the choice to follow my heart and live the life I’d wanted. Now, my reader, do you dare to take the risk to follow your heart and fulfil your own destiny? Or will you still listen to your mind and spend the rest of your life wishing you’d followed your heart instead?